when you feel inferior
you go all the way down
you look at everything that makes you feel even worse
you compare yourself to all the people around you
and feel even worse again

i can do this
i know i have to
and i know its the only thing i can do
and the only thing that i will love doing

over the week

stuffed myself crazy with amazing japanese food over the past week

 random bits at work: dismantling the installation for SG50, tumbling boxes flattening them, newbalance commercial. 

brunch on a saturday at common man coffee roasters. food that taste somewhat the same from places to places. note to self- i must stop ordering eggs ben or big breakfast. 

 monopoly on white sheets whats not to love

 trip to the wet market after lunch. so many good ol' memories 

the golden hour also my favourite time to take the bus. love morning bus trips too

one phone call

just one phone call is enough
to bring me such joy
to make me over the moon
to make the constant thoughts all go away
to make me wanna see you even more than more

dear we are so near right now
we have 1 more day
and i could hold you so close to me

notes to self:
brainstorm more about typography project..
take more buildings and graphical images for photography weekly assignment.
run to him when you see him

lets see what i missed out on..

so i have been gone for quite awhile
some stuff that occurred was my birthday.. his enlistment.. and yeah pretty much it
birthday was great even though a little bit emotional and rocky probably because of the turning 21 blues (if there is ever such a thing)
shortly after he had to enlist and start serving the nation for two years
its currently day 5 right now and i have 6 more days till i can finally see him
this period has been so difficult
not being able to speak to him as much.. but finally hearing his voice at random timings of the day really make everything feels better.

and i had to witness another friend of mine going through the same thing
don't we all act the same

i should start working on my projects
i have 6 weeks left in first sem and this is all so crazy quick

all the right decisions

.. with sunflower in his hands 

the sandwiches he made that taste so delicious 

the picnic-kiteflying day 

lazing around on the picnic mat
non-stop blabbering on how high our kite managed to fly 

observing people

holding hands

smiling ear to ear

ruining a roll of film (that has actually photos i took in bangkok.. but lets not talk about this now)

ending the day with dinner at my favourite sushi place 

long bus ride

thanks for making this pre-
birthday celebration

.. and making me feel so special

i 

love 

you 

dear 

 ☼

when the feel comes

i took a ton of photos at work today but none of them work out
color scheme color scheme.. not me not me.. yes yes..
sometimes you just gotta keep telling yourself lies to make yourself feel better because people will always try to bring you down. they come tell you things about yourself that you don't actually wish to know. they rip your mind apart making you feel like.. why am i not like myself anymore.
but no. somedays you just gotta fuck whatever they say and just do whatever you feel like doing. eat whatever you want. wear whatever you want. say whatever the hell you need to say.

feeling quite under the weather (still). must be that sometimes-blocked-sometimes-runny nose of mine. made omu soba and it taste sooooo deliciousssss. the mayo played SUCH a big part.
so happy to use the self service check out system at the supermarket
even though i get to scan items at work too, but don't you find scanning items and hearing that 'beep' can be so satisfying at times?
maybe its just me

waiting for the drowsiness to kick in...
listening to two weeks by FKA twigs now on spotify
i wish i can have better results everytime i google "nice indie playlist 2015"
maybe i can try "nice bands that sounds like made in heights or little dragons"
google you're suppose to do your job

don't forget

 yesterday was a special day
so he took me out on a ramen date
we have been talking about this ramen date since a month ago when he was about to come home from Japan
but two sloths can't seem to move around after they are back from travelling
so the ramen date kept getting delayed
and i had one of the best ramen
that pork belly melting in my mouth
it was nice
especially observing how he eats
how he saved that piece of pork belly for the last
how happy he got because of the pork belly
it was nice!
i got myself a maccha ice cream along the way
it isn't how i wanted
poor boy had to eat it instead
and don't forget my white dress got black inked.

and i was just doing school work for a few hours.. clearing assignments.. more pimples popping out.. its like a norm now to listen to made in heights every time i'm working on something or being messed up. but i really need some new songs or bands to listen to. the bands i listen to whenever i'm on the go basically rotates between purity ring, made in heights, lykke li and little dragons.

i bought Yes Please recently and now its sitting on my bedside table

i will get back to you soon i promise