i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
i hate time i hate time i hate waiting i hate everything i hate anticipations i hate countdowns i hate myself i hate all that can be hate i hate it i fucking hate it


just hide you pathetic soul
just go back to the sheets
just let the water flow
just crumble
and go
is this what you've been waiting for
now take a good look
everyone is pointing fingers at you
you fool
keep dreaming

"quit beating yourself up" and films

not feeling the best today, but that phone call with him sure make me feel a little happier and sure about myself and wherever i am going. don't worry i will always remember all your words of encouragement and keep it with me for the bad days :)

sometimes you tend to lose yourself easily as you see many amazing works out there. but, always always remember to be yourself. only by being yourself, will you then be able to create something that nobody else can follow and make the most out of it! for me now, i waver a lot. i see many good artist that i wish to become, and i am so immersed in wanting to be them that i forgot that i am me instead. but at the end of the day, you'll be dead beat trying to be someone else. so come back to being yourself 

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sorry for rambling so much, i guess these are just compiled feelings over the month. also, i have been eating frosties almost every night now and its not going good. even when i'm full, i feel the need to have frosties while re-watching friends before i can go to bed. 

i have many many many assignments too.. many many things to do..... i miss lying on my bed for just one full day. 

in the mean time, i finally developed my films! So here goes - shot by Konica c35 EF / Ektar 100

yay its friday!