mon-sun

shot with Konica C35 using EKTAR 100 

 

monday and tuesday night: replaying his videos to sleep, missing him like crazy 

wednesday: hoping friday would come.

thursday: getting excited for friday. 

friday evening: i wish i can hug him like this forever

saturday: don't end don't end don't end. 

sunday night: telling him how much i miss him even though he just left a few hours ago

basically every week of my life 

missing him 

waiting for 10pm phone calls

jump for joy when friday comes 

i love you

the most

always

i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
i hate time i hate time i hate waiting i hate everything i hate anticipations i hate countdowns i hate myself i hate all that can be hate i hate it i fucking hate it


just hide you pathetic soul
just go back to the sheets
just let the water flow
just crumble
and go
is this what you've been waiting for
now take a good look
everyone is pointing fingers at you
you fool
keep dreaming

"quit beating yourself up" and films

not feeling the best today, but that phone call with him sure make me feel a little happier and sure about myself and wherever i am going. don't worry i will always remember all your words of encouragement and keep it with me for the bad days :)

sometimes you tend to lose yourself easily as you see many amazing works out there. but, always always remember to be yourself. only by being yourself, will you then be able to create something that nobody else can follow and make the most out of it! for me now, i waver a lot. i see many good artist that i wish to become, and i am so immersed in wanting to be them that i forgot that i am me instead. but at the end of the day, you'll be dead beat trying to be someone else. so come back to being yourself 

-- 

sorry for rambling so much, i guess these are just compiled feelings over the month. also, i have been eating frosties almost every night now and its not going good. even when i'm full, i feel the need to have frosties while re-watching friends before i can go to bed. 

i have many many many assignments too.. many many things to do..... i miss lying on my bed for just one full day. 

in the mean time, i finally developed my films! So here goes - shot by Konica c35 EF / Ektar 100

yay its friday!

Another month, hello October!

So another month is soon to be over, and we are one more month closer to Christmas(yay!)

For the last week of September.. pretty much enjoying my one week of term break before a crazy semester starts. I have lessons till 10pm almost everyday, oh dear.......

The haze has been pretty bad lately but it comes and go. Mid autumn festival was fun, drinking chinese tea cup after cup.

Friday come quick

hello see you later

lately i have been SOOOO busy rushing out my final projects. first submission and presentation will be tomorrow. and then two more next week!

made a list of things to get done with during the holidays. i have to send my macbook for repair. it crashed thrice and all three times when i'm on illustrator before i got to save my files, so i had to start all over again. 

all the best with life guys

while i bury my face full of pimples in my computer screen (if possible hahaha) 

progress

how are you
i have lots to do
but i am lying every single minute that i can
i feel like i am making progress
but then again i am not because i have been lying around so much
i feel like i want to try drawing using legit drawing pens rather than markers
maybe i should go get some drawing pens tomorrow
will be running errands
have so much to buy for executing my photography project
i am so excited for so many things
for friday / for seeing him / for drawing
hands are a pain in the ass to draw

SEPTEMBER ALREADY

i know its only tuesday of the week but here is a bit of what happened during last week and a bit of this week (i should name this section something tacky like recap tuesday or weekly recap or.. what happened during last week featuring spill overs of this week) :

SG night fest. crowd was crazy. didn't manage to roam around much but caught this amazing performance with angels/cupids dangling high up in the air and confetti floating around

 golden hour once again and this is my home town 

 late birthday treat from work. earl grey tea cake was soooo yummyyy....

so sad i didn't get to sit at my favourite spot in the bus

 can't wait for friday.. 

i would love to dedicate a whole post to show my love for longboarding but nah i know its crazy. but oh my goodness this piece of carefully crafted bamboo piece with 4 wheels is so much fun!!! u-turning going round and round. i have a huge bruise and an injury from it but still I WANNA LONGBOARD FOR LIFE. 

when you feel inferior
you go all the way down
you look at everything that makes you feel even worse
you compare yourself to all the people around you
and feel even worse again

i can do this
i know i have to
and i know its the only thing i can do
and the only thing that i will love doing

over the week

stuffed myself crazy with amazing japanese food over the past week

 random bits at work: dismantling the installation for SG50, tumbling boxes flattening them, newbalance commercial. 

brunch on a saturday at common man coffee roasters. food that taste somewhat the same from places to places. note to self- i must stop ordering eggs ben or big breakfast. 

 monopoly on white sheets whats not to love

 trip to the wet market after lunch. so many good ol' memories 

the golden hour also my favourite time to take the bus. love morning bus trips too

one phone call

just one phone call is enough
to bring me such joy
to make me over the moon
to make the constant thoughts all go away
to make me wanna see you even more than more

dear we are so near right now
we have 1 more day
and i could hold you so close to me

notes to self:
brainstorm more about typography project..
take more buildings and graphical images for photography weekly assignment.
run to him when you see him

lets see what i missed out on..

so i have been gone for quite awhile
some stuff that occurred was my birthday.. his enlistment.. and yeah pretty much it
birthday was great even though a little bit emotional and rocky probably because of the turning 21 blues (if there is ever such a thing)
shortly after he had to enlist and start serving the nation for two years
its currently day 5 right now and i have 6 more days till i can finally see him
this period has been so difficult
not being able to speak to him as much.. but finally hearing his voice at random timings of the day really make everything feels better.

and i had to witness another friend of mine going through the same thing
don't we all act the same

i should start working on my projects
i have 6 weeks left in first sem and this is all so crazy quick

all the right decisions

.. with sunflower in his hands 

the sandwiches he made that taste so delicious 

the picnic-kiteflying day 

lazing around on the picnic mat
non-stop blabbering on how high our kite managed to fly 

observing people

holding hands

smiling ear to ear

ruining a roll of film (that has actually photos i took in bangkok.. but lets not talk about this now)

ending the day with dinner at my favourite sushi place 

long bus ride

thanks for making this pre-
birthday celebration

.. and making me feel so special

i 

love 

you 

dear 

 ☼